Well, that's life.

After more than a year without seeing so much as a trace of her, she showed up last night. Can you believe the nerve?! Without even a warning. I mean, really?! NOW?! Now she wants to show her utterly annoying and disgusting self? I thought breastfeeding would keep her away, but nooooo, aunt flow just had to rain on my parade! LOL
So now I feel like a deflated balloon, without one ounce of energy. Thanks to 'auntie flow' all I want to do is eat and sleep, and I'm supposed to be working out to shed some lb's before we go to Florida! Which by the way, I'm so incredibly happy about! July 3...I guess I still have some time, right? I need to get her OUTTA here so I can feel a little bit normal again.

I'm a bit nervous about May 7th. That's the date I'm leaving for my women's retreat...it's an overnight, and I've never left Peyton for more than a few hours. I WILL be ok, she WILL be ok...that's what I keep telling myself. I think this retreat will be good for me. It's based on a book called "Self Talk, Soul Talk" which I just started reading. It's basically about how women tell themselves lies which seem like normal talk after a while...."I'm not good enough", "Why didn't I do that?", "I'm so stupid", etc. Boy is that me! I'm constantly negative talking myself, and it seems so second nature. I'm hoping this book and this conference will help me to be more positive about myself.

OK, so I'm going to drink more coffee, eat some more donuts, and try to muster up some motivation to run the vaccuum and straighten up...but chances are slim.