More rants...and pet peeves...

Ok, so here's one of my pet peeves: when people facebook or twitter about how they don't have time to do anything...how they have too much on their plate...and whine and complain about when everything will get done and slow back down. If you're that busy, get off the dang computer, people!

I'm on the computer a lot doing work stuff for church, so I'm usually multi-tasking by reading stuff on facebook (twitter, not so much). Yes, I'm nosey! But (and this may sound stupid) I feel like it keeps me in the loop of what's going on with everyone. I don't have a workplace or work friends to go to during the week, and all I hear all day is baby talk, baby whining and fussing, etc. So Facebook is sort of my outlet sometimes! I know I complain about things too...but c'mon people. If that's the ONLY thing you are doing, then you need to re-evaluate your life, your agenda, and what's really important to you.

I'm glad that there are people out there who are seemingly "motivated" or seem to have ambition to go back to school, work, raise kids, etc. I applaud them. But please, don't complain about it! You got yourself in that situation, work to get yourself out and don't complain. Not publicly, anyway! Sometimes I'm not sure if it's motivation/ambition but rather something that gives that person a busy life so they can act all high and mighty to everyone else.

Ok, I am really sounding mean. (Lord, help me to not be so judgemental...and keep to my own business!) Must be the hormones and lack of Zoloft I'm not getting any longer! I thought yesterday I was doing ok without my beloved Zoloft...but I have my good days and bad. Good thing I get to go on it again after the baby is born! Thank you Lord!

Pregnancy update...heard baby #2's heartbeat yesterday, so that always makes a great day! I've been having what I thought were really painful round ligament pains, but evidently I'm still too early in this pregnancy to have those. Doc seems to think it's scar tissue from the c-section that is stretching and growing. Eeek!

I was also pleased that I had only gained 2 pounds since my last appointment! I'm trying to stay at or below the 150 mark when I have this baby. (Ok, so I'm embarrassed to say but I'm at 139 now. I have to keep close tabs on myself...and I need to be accountable for myself!) I don't want to be a whopping 174 like I was with Peyton! I was so embarrassed the other night watching home movies w/TJ of me in the hospital. I was HUGE and didn't realize it, I guess. Yeah, I had a huge belly, but I also had a huge butt, huge thighs, big arms...everything! And that is just not healthy. So my plan is to gain weight, but very little if I can help it. I'm so self conscious these days about my body image and weight, and I'm not sure why. But I look at old pics of myself and think, "girl you used to be 115 with a flat belly. What happened?!" Oh Lord help me to get back to that one day!

I'm really scared to start a workout routine since I was not working out before I got pregnant. I know I'm out of shape, so I would have to take it super easy. But I was scared like this with Peyton...I don't want to start working out and put stress on the baby and mess something up. I don't think I could live with myself! So I'm trying to eat better, and I've decided to go mall walking at least 2 times a week. When Spring gets here I plan to go zoo walking 2 times a week, and of course walking around the neighborhood. (Ohh, I can't wait!)

I've also been thinking about having a mommy's day once a week or once every two weeks with some other stay at home mommas...just not sure if anyone would be interested. But it would be fun to get together for lunch, chat about baby/kid stuff, and let the babies play, etc. I don't know, I feel like I need some more friends! I'm going crazy some days in this house with a 1 yr old and a dog. I love Peyton with all my heart, but she is a typical toddler, and they wear you out and stretch you thin very quickly. So if you're reading this, and happen to be interested in mommy/baby play day, let me know! :) I don't even care to have it at my house, or wherever! All I know is I lost some friends when I got married, and then I lost some more when we had Peyton. And who better to understand me than my fellow mommas?

I have to give credit to TJ for helping me so much when he's home. He works overtime sometimes, and suffers from migraines most days. But he still alternates with me getting up with Peyton in the morning, feeding her breakfast, and taking over play time/story time when he gets home at night. I don't know how some ladies raise kids with a husband who isn't willing to do anything with their kids. I know of a couple of mommas that will have to get a sitter for the kids if she has to go somewhere...WHILE the husband is HOME. Hmmm, that's just not acceptable to me! So I am super thankful and blessed to have someone who is not only my friend, but my partner in everything we do. :)